believe it and be satisfied.

Everyone wants to give themselves to someone, completely, to have a deep down relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God to a Christian says: No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by me alone, until giving yourself totally and undeservingly to me, to having an intensely personal and unique relationship with me alone, discovering that only in me is your satisfation to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusively of other desires and longings. I want you to stop planning and stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing--one that you cannot imagine. Please allow me to bring it to you. You just wait, that is all. Do not be anxious. Do not look at the things you want. You just keep looking off and up to me or you will miss what I want to show you. Then, when you are ready, I will surprise you with a love more wonderful than any of you could dream of. You see, until you are ready, I am working even this minute to have both of you ready at the same time, when you are both satisfied exclusively with me and the gift I have prepared--for this exemplifies your relationship with me and is the perfect love. I want you to see it in the flesh, a picture of your relationship with me and the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer you with myself. Know that I love you utterly. I am the Almighty God. Believe it and be satisfied.

Endings... or new beginnings?

It seems like every other year I have an amazing year... and then I have an "off" year. 2008 would most definately be considered an "off" year. Well, since the middle of May at least.

The middle of May brought on a whole series of "endings" for me. I've struggled alot with staying happy since then, and I find myself getting upset over a lot of things. But, over the past few weeks, I've finally been able to find myself again. I've been able to find who Heather is, and that is something I think I had lost. I've been heartbroken since May, and it didn't help that I looked at all of my problems as endings. Endings are sad. I'm not very good with dealing with endings...

But, I've finally gotten a new outlook on it all. This hasnt been an ending- but a beginning. While the past two years of my life were wonderful, that relationship was something meant strictly for that time in my life. I firmly believe that God brings people into your life for certain periods of life, and that period is now over. I'm not the same person anymore, and I'm strong enough to face life alone now. I have a new outlook on it all. Instead of being sad about an ending, I'm going to be excited about a new beginning. I am excited about where my life is taking me. I'm excited about the possiblities of where I will end up in a few months, and I'm excited about the people that will be brought into my life.

God is SO good. I asked for a change of heart, and He gave it to me. I am free of baggage and burdens and freed to go on. I can look back on the memories with a smile on my face, and no ache in my heart. I am excited about my future possiblities!

You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
Your are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone